i know now.

"I got through it.

and i'm on the other side. (...)

till I met you I used to think I just wasn't a good guy. (... )

but now, after all of it, I know i'm a good man. and I thank you for that. because I know now I am good enough not to deserve this. not to have to feel like this. (...) I deserve someone who will stay. 

I'm happy your ok, but I want you to go. 

and be happy. 

and not come back."